Healing Hurts…

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For some time now, the Holy Spirit has constantly whispered the words, “healing hurts” to my spirit. I heard it but it never really hit until I was faced with the depth and reality of these two powerful words. These two words can be filled with stories, pain, and more. The authenticity never hits until the story officially begins.

The past week for me has been interesting to say the least but good. Last Thursday morning I was rushed to the ER for an uncomfortable but not life threatening medical issue. After the nurses and doctors did what they could, I was later sent to an ENT who resolved the issue hours later. The following day, I was scheduled to have oral surgery and it has been a journey ever since. Thursday alone was a lesson for me. It truly taught me that there’s a process for healing and to get healing. Although healing is in store, you have to trust God and understand each phase and purpose of the  process.

The song, “Pretty Hurts” by Beyonce probably came to your mind reading this. That’s one song that came to mine. Beyonce talks about the struggles one must go through to achieve this level of beauty. The problem is the level of beauty that the individual goes through is filled with so much physical, mental, and emotional pain to achieve it. Yet, she ends each chorus with, “It’s the soul that needs the surgery.” Isn’t that something to think about? How often do we go through great lengths of pain and suffering to achieve something? For example, when going to school to get a degree, it can be a painful process. The workload and stress can be unbelievable combined with the debt and sleep deprivation can be a whirlwind of pain. We go through this long process to get the degree only to struggle finding a job and reaping the benefits of the debt we worked so hard to accumulate (or maybe it’s just me).

Where am I going with all of this?

Well, we often forget that just as much we go through pain in the natural world, there’s just as much pain in the spiritual world. Healing hurts people. The combined physical, mental, and emotional pain come together to wear on our spiritual lives. The weight of all three can become so heavy that they distract us from the bigger picture. Actually, we often forget there is a bigger picture or purpose coming from all of the combined pain. In the midst of the struggle, we are just thinking, “God where are you?  I need right now!!!!!!” It’s really interesting how during that moment of pure desperation, tears, and panic, we want God to step in immediately and BAM there’s the result. The natural world is filled with process and the spiritual world is filled process yet we forget about the process when it’s time for restoration and healing. Healing hurts people!

We must move forward with the process and trust God even when it’s super difficult. Here’s the process:

Anxiety/panic

The first phase of the process is the anxiety/panic stage. You find yourself in disbelief over the situation. Fear has officially taken over your mind and body and all you want is the solution. You don’t want to wait or sit. You want answers and for the situation to be done immediately. There’s not a lot of peace during this stage and you try your best to pray, read your bible, and trust God but it interferes with your peace. Although you keep telling yourself that everything will be okay, your carnal mind and body immediately remind you of the current state of the situation.

Waiting

The second phase of the process is the waiting period. Waiting 30 seconds or 3 minutes feels like an hour or two. Your mind races with so many thoughts and the more the situation continues or worsens, you want the results NOW! Just like a child anxiously waits to arrive to that final destination asking, “Are we there yet?” we are the same way with God.

We are constantly knocking on the heavenly door asking God when will the time arrive? When will we get the answers or the solution? How much longer? Although it feels like we as adults are far from children, we are seen as the same way in the eyes of God.

The Pain

The second hardest stage in the process is the pain. The pain is the distraction that causes you to forget about God. During this process, you forget about the process and His plan/the big picture. All you know is that you are in pain and it is uncomfortable. This process can be the most agonizing, hardest, and challenging stage to the entire process. Regrets begin to wash over your mind, you wish that this never would have happened, and hope that it will be over in a matter of seconds. It honestly feels like you are in a twilight zone or dreaming a nightmare. However, you fail to think about how much work God is doing during this stage. This is the stage where healing is beginning to take place. This is the part where restoration is being sprung from heaven in our natural laps where we will begin to see results.

Being Uncomfortable

Boy oh boy!! This stage can be draining. After overcoming the panic, waiting, and the pain, it feels like life is just getting worse be the second. On the flip side of the pain, lies the uncomfortable stage. It’s far better than the pain you just experienced and now you are in the midst of trying to find the comfort you once had before. Without realizing that God’s operation is now over, you are now transitioning into the healing phase. New thoughts and questions may arise as you finally comprehend what you just faced.

Healing

You’ve come so far and although you’ve faced so much, there’s still challenges, pain, and waiting. Why? Because you are in the healing phase. The healing phase is compiled of blood, sweat, tears, and a lot of patience. This is the season that you will feel may last a lifetime. People will come and go. Time will go by and yet you feel left behind and confused. The prayers of begging and pleading for God to come through will become more draining as you your mental and emotional state of mind is officially shot. Progression will take place, but it will come at a slow rate. You are constantly thinking to yourself how glad you will be when all of this will be behind you.

The Results

After all of the phases have come and gone, the finish line is within arm’s reach. You can see it. You can smell it. And you can taste the victory. You focus on how much you’ve been through and transition your journey into motivation to finish. You know you can do it and you can feel it in your spirit. Upon reaching the end, you’re relieved and finally take the breath of victory thanking God it’s over. You made it. Although it was a long process, you’re so proud realizing what you’ve faced. Finally, you tell your testimony to help someone else. Peace arises in your spirit as you face the new day of the new season. Because you have come so far, the future challenges that begin to arise don’t phase you because of your faith coming out of this difficult season.

So yes, there is a process. This process can be long and tedious, but it is worth the journey. There will be times when you get frustrated, cry, scream, and beg God to just handle the situation.

Remember, He has and will never fail you. Just like Jesus prayed from the place of fear sweating drops of blood, He trusted the process. And He has won the victory. Jesus is alive and living in you through the Holy Spirit. He’s got the victory so that means that you have the victory as well. Are you ready to receive it?

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